Bikini

Alrighty, so thanks to my friend Karla, whom has given me the courage to wear a bikini in public (of course at around sunset so the lighting isn't so good) has inspired me to break down and buy my first bikini.  So I did, they were on sale and I just got a cheap one to start out with.  Now by no means do I feel completely comfortable trotting around in it, because of stretch marks and such, but I do feel pretty good wearing it.  It defines a goal in my life that I never thought I would achieve and it actually came before getting my surgery, so it's a bit of a shock to me that it's all starting to perfectly fall in place.  My goal, that has plagued me since the birth of my oldest son, was to wear a bikini in public.  A few weeks ago, I did just that.  Granted, I was with some of my most trusted, closest and supportive friends which made wearing said bikini that much easier.  I'm sure they were probably just being super nice telling me how great I looked, but it really did something for me.  It made me proud that I had lost all 45 pounds so far and despite the stretch marks and bit of saggy skin, I felt pretty darn good.  It was sort of a freeing experience which is why, even though Karla gave me the bikini she made me try on that day, I felt I needed to actually purchase a bikini for myself, that was my own that I picked out and that I bought.

So even though I'm not quite to the point of strutting in a bikini in front of a bunch of random strangers, I am confident enough to do it in front of the people who are always cheering for me, who love me, who support me and who inspire me.

With all the love and gratitude in my heart, this is dedicated to you, my suppoort team of the most amazing people I know.  You are my family and my heart! MUAH!!

Love,

Skinny Phoenix